Close My Eyes

The taste of pain is on my tongue
Memories of all I’ve done
I press the switch and feel decline
And spit on all I think as mine

The rage alive inside my eyes
I’ve severed all my closest ties
Engage the breaking of a soul
I pound the ground and lose control

Stitch together the parts that fell
Internally, I’m living hell

The loss inside is climbing high
Unspoken whispers, misplaced sighs
The dagger deep inside my heart
I smile as it rips apart

Desperation digs inside
Coated by a thousand lies
With each break inside the bone
I’m still standing, all alone

I face my demons with a smile
And paint the image of denial

Screams find shelter in my eyes
The ghosts of past inside a sigh
The pulse inside is fading slow
I’m caught beneath the undertow

The glyphs of hate coat my skin
I’m the living image of a sin
As I burn my broken dream
I rip false hopes seam by seam

With every path that’s left behind
Leaves a broken soul with broken time

A prayer unheard, spoken still
A break segmented in my will
The final push that breaks inside
The shadowed me, the place I hide

As shadows feast upon my soul
Inside meets the pain of cold
As I own the pain inside
With one breath I close my eyes

And remember
I will never forget.

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Demons

All this pain is clawing
Inside my hopes are falling
A drift that leads to nowhere
Yet I’m seeking for a calling

A tune that makes some sense

The shards of a broken soul
Fade away when past control
This rift of hate deep inside
Has me lost deprived of pride

The chorus ringing deep inside
Shadows shudder, all I hide
And numb away with broken bliss

The poison laced along my lips
It numbs away the pain
As a ghost fades away
I’ll never be the same

The shadows creak inside the mind
And leaves a man walking blind
With a hope to somehow find

An answer to this all

As words taint how I stand
This demon comes alive
As the world breaks in half
Owned by this darker side

Eyes are void of any hope
A heart constricts with pain
I stand a scarecrow to myself
That has lost its name

Cold

Life is slipping through my hands
No matter how i try to stand
This empty spreads inside of me
The whisper we call misery

Is eating me alive

When every breath is tainted
From the dreams I painted
When one is living jaded
The me I knew had faded

Left a puppet far past saving

Tears mesh together as a lullaby
A broken link that has no ties
Walking aimless with no place
A broken soul that lost its face

This web of scars all that’s left

With every battered hope
Attached to chains that hold
That strain a wounded heart
Left split open, turning cold

When eyes of hope lose their light
Days become forever night
And while one may try to push on

Sometimes letting go is all that’s left

Mine Again

Lace my heart with false promise
The lies of your words
Whether they’re heard
Have left it forever bruised

When every thought of you
Is a glimpse into the dark
A broken ridge carved in a heart
Some marks are meant to last

To taste the bitter sweet that’s hate

Scars engraved as stories
Tales that one has survived
Reminding that they are alive
Alive with a road to take

Dreams become purpose
With every step feeling frail
With every hope that’s set to sail
There is only moving forward

Leaving worthless things behind

The pools of fire in my eyes
I watch as the world burns
Knowing soon will be your turn
A smile knowing it was earned

Half the man I used to be
As loss pulls thoughts apart
Left standing is my beating heart
Knowing it is mine again

Has never felt so right.

Press On

The fabric of memory
Disillusioned with fate
I’ve reached forever knowing
Counting time as I wait

My skin turns black and blue
The reaction of this pain
A heart turns gray in passing
Left forever stained

It’s knowing one has to keep going

Every breath is mocking
Convinced nothing will come
Inside a stale, broken dream
Uncovered by the nature’s sun

I press deep inside of me
Looking for something to hold
Wandering the darkened tunnels
Of a soul that has turned cold

Yet…still it lives for something

As I turn these corners
The walls around me fade
I’m counting down the seconds
That feel more like days

At the end of this road
I hope to find something
And should it be for nothing
I will fall knowing I tried

One can only wait to see
Whether fate or time will fade or be
For now I will press forward
With a hope to find something

Hold me up while I press on